My heart is breaking

Today, I had to do the hardest things ever. I had to say good bye. To someone that I love dearly. I am only strong enough to do this, because of God's divine strength within me.

We have mutually agreed that there needs to be a break in our relationship, so that we can see what it is that God is trying to work out in us. I have total confidence in the plan that God has - no matter what it is. I love him enough to let him go. It hurts me to see him hurting. I can pray for him. I can be his friend.

There is no good bye.

I love you, Luke Dominic Massey.

God, please heal my breaking heart...

This weekend has been the toughest in my life. I'm still not sure how everything will turn out, but I need a miracle. I am asking you to pray with me. MY GOD WILL MAKE A WAY!

Oh, Joy!

Wow! It has been way to long since I have posted something here.

I am once again, the Lady of the House. This time, mom is gone to Albania, Europe on a mission trip. I think that God is using this time to prepare me foe something in my future. I have a lot of mixed feelings about her being gone. Its way too long and involved a story to post on here, but I know God has a plan. It will all work out for His glory.

Saturday was a particularly hard day for me, knowing that mom was leaving on Monday etc. Having been on the phone with Luke for the better part of an hour, I knew he would come around noon. He asked me to meet him at the gate. I said. "Sure, why not? I would love that!" I got to the gate about the same time he did. I went to his door, and he asked me to close my eyes. (All this time, i'm thinking, umm what on earth?!)So, I closed my eyes. When he said to open them, there was the most beautiful bouquet of roses in front of me. 3 ginormous roses. Red roses. I was speechless. They were so beautiful!! After thanking, and hugging him, i sat back to admire them. We both found significance in three roses. Well, first of all, red is for Love. And the three roses symbolize God, Luke, and I. A trio. A circle. Never ending. I love it. After putting them in more water, mom got the camera, and took some (many) pictures for us. I love them all, and can't decide which ones are my favorite. I will share some with you. During this whole time, I was thanking God for blessing me with such a wonderful man to love. I believe that He has a wonderful plan and purpose for our lives. I can't wait to find out what it is!

Ok, here are some {adorable} pictures for you to enjoy!

Will you be my Valentine?

I have a boyfriend. A completely amazing boyfriend. And his name is Luke.
It means "Belonging to the Lord".

Although we have been dating for a few weeks already, we wanted to wait to make it public until Valentines. So, now I can shout it out.
I HAVE A BOYFRIEND.

God has blessed me so much the last few weeks. Months. Years. He had the perfect person picked out for me. Thank you, God!!!

Here is a picture of us - about to leave for out first 'official' date. :D

Sick and Tired

I'm sick and tired. Sick of body. Sick of mind. Sick of spirit.
Sick and Tired of "IT" still being a secret. God, When will it end?

So Blessed

I. Am. So. Incredibly. Blessed.

Ahh, thank you God, for wonderful friends that give just the right advice, right when I need it :)

"I will praise You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Marvelous are your works, and THAT, my soul knows right well." Psalm 139

The urge to blog - how strange!

I feel an incredible urge to blog - lol. This does not happen to me much any more. I want to blog about my day, my week, and just in general, so here goes.

My day: So well, today I have been in a very weird, giggly-ish mood. Almost nothing makes me laugh. I think it is because I am very happy for all my friends that have gotten bit with this strange thing that must be in the water somewhere. But not in my well, sadly. They have all gotten bit by the 'boyfriend bug'. LOL I love the fact that they are happy, but it is saddening all the same.
I keep going back and reading a friend's blog, because it just cracks me up! She's like a kid in the candy store with her new boyfriend, and its just so CUTE!
I watched movies today while I sewed, to keep me company. The Fighting Kentuckian (John Wayne of course) was followed by August Rush and than an old camp movie. Oh, and Lady and the Highwayman. What a collection!
Tonight I got to FACEBOOK! It seems like forever, but it was really just a few hours. LOL
I have had so many good chats with good friends today, I don't want to sleep - It will all end!

My week: I am in the process of sewing an incredibly gorgeous ball gown for a more gorgeous friend. It is turning out better than I was expecting! I'm so happy!!
And I need to make some phone calls this week that I have been putting off, that's for sure!
I have to work three nights this week, so that takes out of my day like I wish it didn't. This weekend is the last weekend before..(insert drum roll).....LIENDO! I AM SO FREAKIN' EXCITED! Not that you can tell of course....

This is gonna have to be 'it' for tonight. I'M TIRED!

I just flew a flag on Facebook for Veterans Day, tomorrow. I want to especially thank my friends that are in the Military currently:

Thor Sumner(Marines,Afganistan),

Kelley Duke(Army,West Point),

Trey Campbell(Army,Germany)

~Vic

Get behind me, Satan!

Satan is desperatly trying to ruin a wonderful conversation by messing with phone batteries, and whatever else he can get his hands on. Get away from me, satan! God is with me. There is nothing you can do to harm me. Thank you, God!!

New website!!!!

Yay!! I finally made my own website. You can find it here - www.southernrosebuds.webs.com

I'm pretty excited about it! Check it out, and leave a comment if you want!

How's that for "America's got Talent"?

Ok, so I have a brother that is very good at this whole "trick riding" thing. Here is our reliable horse, Ranger, and my brother. This horse will follow him anywhere, probably why this does not work for me.

He can ride around like this all day - no problem.

And did I mention that my brother looks just like Nick Jonas? Odd.

My Birthday

I should have posted this almost a month ago. Time flies!

Here are some pictures from my big "19". :)

Me :)

The most amazingly awesome cheesecake that my wonderful mother made for my birthday. Yum!

It was a good birthday. :)

Can you spell I.N.S.A.N.E???

Well, I sure can!!! That has been the title of my life the last few weeks. Whew!

One thing for sure: I am insanely happy that our house is done-er than it has been for a long time! We have been moving various things, and the "old" house is beginning to look really empty. That's good though! I have some recent pictures from the new house that I would like to share with you. I'm just so excited about moving!!

Dad is building allllll the cabinets for this house. Trust me, there are a ton!!

Mom's Sewing room

The kitchen

Ha, you can tell where the sink will go! :)

Laundry room

These cute little cubbies are to stack folded clothes in. Cool, huh?

Some pictures of my sewing room before the cabinets were finished.

Man, I have so many more pictures, but first I need to get them off the camera. Will update soon with more recent ones.

As far as the rest of my insane life: I am trying to finish up sewing projects before the first weekend in October. The Battle for Fort Crawford should be interesting. If you wonder what it is that I do for a living, you can find out at www.southernrosebuds.webs.com.

The insanity has traveled into my personal life as well....I didn't know that life could be this complicated?!?! Part of growing up, I guess.

Well, I hope you enjoy the pictures, and I WILL POST SOON AGAIN.

God Bless, CallMeVic

Nightmares

God, why do you give me these nightmares? I really don't understand. This last one about blew me to pieces....was asking him about it the right thing to do? It is so comforting to know that he is ok. Nightmares are horrible. Give me peace. Keep him safe.

Right now I need prayer for 2 friends of mine. One stationed in Iraq, another soon to be shipped to Graffen, Germany, then Afganistan.

My life the past few weeks...

The past few months and weeks have been stressed. I wonder why? So much has been going on in my life. Changes, feelings, accomplishments...

Late night chats with friends have helped me to keep my life in perspective. Thank God for them! the past 2 weeks, I have felt so alone. Mom is gone, and it's just me at the house during the day. That lonely feeling just creeps in and stays there. At least until someone texts/facebooks me and cheers me up again. I have also found that baking cookies seems to be therapy for me. Or maybe it's the "eating them" part? The best thing is the last 2 weeks was that I finally DID get my driver's license. I love being able to go somewhere. :) That was definitely a highlight. Along with that comes this: I get to run errands and go the grocery store now. By myself. :) Hehe.

I love music. And lately I have been listening to alot of Rascal Flatts. I love his music. So I am going to share with you, my favorite of his songs. Hmm..I have alot of favorites, but this one is really just for 'me' right now. I have found this song to be so true for me.

Another highlight of the month: I will be spending the weekend with my best friend and her family. I love that I have the opportunity to do that. Sadly, that's not until the last weekend of the month. :( Still, I'm very excited!

I will be gone for 10 days this month. We are going to Virginia to get my mom and sister. I am looking forward to the opportunity to drive on the way there. :) It should be fun, and I am excited about spending time with my Aunts, Uncles, Grandparents, and Cousins. I also have a rush order to get out. Fast. I hope that I can do it around everything else.

The 4th was a big thing in town this year, so Judson and I went to check it out.

Oh , and I figured out why moms are so tired. I have almost gotten my fill of housekeeping, and being the 'mom'. Between all the laundry, dishes, packing lunches, making supper, and everything else I find to do, the day..... goes poof! And some moms even work, on top of all this!! You're my hero, I love you, Mom!!

P. S. Please, either make the rain stop, or finance an Ark for me? :D

-CallMeVic

Tim McGraw - Live Like You Were Dying

I love this song as it teaches me to take on day at a time, and to treasure what I have....

Good/Bad News

Ok, so I'm sure you have all heard about the volcano in Iceland. All the ash that is in the air is prohibiting air traffic to and from USA and EUR. 17,000 flights were canceled on one day!! That's how bad it is. The ash gets sucked into the plane engines, and suffocates them.

So, bad news first. Flights have been delayed for 2 weeks. This timeline comes AFTER the time that my Mom and Brother are set to return FROM Europe. This makes me very sad that they could be stranded for an indefinite amount of time. I pray that God will blow all this smoke and ash away.

Now, the good news. A friend that was supposed to be shipped out from San Diego, will most likely be delayed because of this ash. I am comforted to know that he will indeed be safe for even a few days more.

As in all things, I pray for God's will in both of these situations.

That he will make me content with whatever HE decides.

Thank you, Father!! I have peace in YOUR will.

Why, God, Why??

God, why now, of all times, are you useing this situation to teach me something, I have yet to get a hold of? Is it not enough, to have the pain of him leaving, but also telling me something through it all? I just don't understand!!!!!I wish i didn't have so many regrets about it...Give me peace, and your presence around me.

Please.

Our Military...

I just found out that good friend of mine will be shipped to Ft. Knox in 4 days. I am saddened by this news.

I respect our Military, and am proud of the things they do, but it is still hard to let them go.

My prayers and thoughts are with you, Trey. May HIS Blessings rest on you.

Is your house ready for company?

Today I baked cookies, and made Granola, a favorite of my Dad's. All this is in preparation for the 3 weeks that Mom will not be here. I feel like I am getting my ''house in order''.

It reminds me that every morning, we need to get our ''houses'' in order with the Lord Jesus. He expects us to spend time with Him, and to feed from His word. Cleaning the rooms of our heart, and preparing for His coming, are all part of this. Just as we clean our houses and prepare for company. One day we will look up and see Him, and be so happy that our ''house'' was in order!!

John 14:2

''In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you.''

Grrrrrrr....

Right now I'm really disgusted. Disgusted at someone. They won't talk to me at all, through not fault of mine. We haven't talked in 4 months. Isn't that kind of long to hold a grudge???

I don't know, I'm just really disgusted.......