I'll be loving you forever....this is the song I am listening to. He gave it to me the other night to listen to, cause we both knew what was going to happen. It sure didn't make it any easier. This morning, I wanted to wake up and be told this nightmare is over. But its not. 31 more days. I just want to sit here and cry my eyes out. It hurts so bad. Silence, for a month?! Are you kidding me? That sounds like forever...if I would have used the head God gave me, I would have protested that 2 weeks is plenty of time. Because now I understand some of the repercussions that will happen. I wish God would have made those things clear to me before this. I would have had a different opinion. But you know what? Its happened, and I CAN'T CHANGE IT. NO MATTER HOW BAD IT HURTS.
So, today I sit here...crying out to God what to do next. He is the only way I am ever going to make it through the next month without going insane. He is the only one that will calm and quiet my heart about what could and would happen. And what will. God is in control. He has my good in mind, and will never leave me or forsake me.
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